Another miscarriage
or would it be a "chemical" and does it really matter? Bottom line....something started and as soon as it started, it stopped.
I wasn't "trying", but not preventing either. My cycles are so wacky that AF can arrive as early as CD23 or as late as CD40. I tried to keep up with temping, which I didn't really do a good job with. My RE wants me to temp my cycles out and report to her after 6 months. I really don't think I will - but why is it so hard to just stop? LOL At this point, I don't have a choice. I've peed on all the HPT's that I've had stocked up and only had about 10 OPK's left, which I used a few this cycle - and I am NOT buying anymore tests.
Weird cycle.....so I thought AF was arriving. I was feeling funny, so I peed on an OPK and HPT. Both were positive. Same thing next day, with the HPT getting a bit lighter. Okay, so I surged and am going to ovulate. This month, I felt it. In both ovaries. Ouchie!
I had NO DESIRE to test, really I didn't, but come CD32 and still no AF, I decided to test and there they were, 2 lines. Oh boy...here we go again with OSOM drama, I said to myself. To my surprise there wasn't much drama. Slow and steady increases - nothing drastic. For whatever the reason the test that I took in the middle of the night Monday morning was the best test, I think. To my surprise Monday afternoon I started spotting and woke this morning to a very heavy AF.
I admit that I got goosebumps to think that our baby coming home in September will actually get to be a big sister - but those goosebumps were short lived.
Everything happens for a reason. Our birthmom came into our lives for a reason - our daughter that will be here in September is coming to us for a reason, this pregnancy that didn't last happened for a reason. Does that suck, yes it does - but you know what, I'm okay.
I am so focused on our baby coming home and everything surrounding getting ready. Oh...speaking of, we decided on a crib and changer. It will match the dresser perfectly. It's a 4 poster crib & changer made by the Amish. Jonathan wanted to build one himself, but his time is so limited right now and he's only getting more and more busy. We are going to go with a shade of yellow for the walls of the nursery.
My oldest son is leaving with my Mom at 4am to go to California. My Dad is leaving on Friday to meet them there. I've been busy getting him ready for his trip. He'll be gone for 9 days. Oh...Old Navy is having 1/2 off all men's clothing this week if anyone is in need of good clothes at a good price. I bought my boys a lot of t-shirts this weekend - and flip-flops.
I've been back to work for about 5 weeks now. I love this job. It's so nice being back in the medical field. I love helping people, it's so rewarding. My boss is leaving the country on the 21st, so we have been trying to jam in nursing homes that we go to during that time, but we can't do too much more. We are working 6 days a week until he leaves. Crazy.
So, I realized that I haven't updated in awhile and thought I'd let those that read my journal know whats been going on. Time to run and get my oldest 2 off to their last final. YEAH!!! School is officially out for them.
Have a wonderful day!
~ Jennifer ~
I wasn't "trying", but not preventing either. My cycles are so wacky that AF can arrive as early as CD23 or as late as CD40. I tried to keep up with temping, which I didn't really do a good job with. My RE wants me to temp my cycles out and report to her after 6 months. I really don't think I will - but why is it so hard to just stop? LOL At this point, I don't have a choice. I've peed on all the HPT's that I've had stocked up and only had about 10 OPK's left, which I used a few this cycle - and I am NOT buying anymore tests.
Weird cycle.....so I thought AF was arriving. I was feeling funny, so I peed on an OPK and HPT. Both were positive. Same thing next day, with the HPT getting a bit lighter. Okay, so I surged and am going to ovulate. This month, I felt it. In both ovaries. Ouchie!
I had NO DESIRE to test, really I didn't, but come CD32 and still no AF, I decided to test and there they were, 2 lines. Oh boy...here we go again with OSOM drama, I said to myself. To my surprise there wasn't much drama. Slow and steady increases - nothing drastic. For whatever the reason the test that I took in the middle of the night Monday morning was the best test, I think. To my surprise Monday afternoon I started spotting and woke this morning to a very heavy AF.
I admit that I got goosebumps to think that our baby coming home in September will actually get to be a big sister - but those goosebumps were short lived.
Everything happens for a reason. Our birthmom came into our lives for a reason - our daughter that will be here in September is coming to us for a reason, this pregnancy that didn't last happened for a reason. Does that suck, yes it does - but you know what, I'm okay.
I am so focused on our baby coming home and everything surrounding getting ready. Oh...speaking of, we decided on a crib and changer. It will match the dresser perfectly. It's a 4 poster crib & changer made by the Amish. Jonathan wanted to build one himself, but his time is so limited right now and he's only getting more and more busy. We are going to go with a shade of yellow for the walls of the nursery.
My oldest son is leaving with my Mom at 4am to go to California. My Dad is leaving on Friday to meet them there. I've been busy getting him ready for his trip. He'll be gone for 9 days. Oh...Old Navy is having 1/2 off all men's clothing this week if anyone is in need of good clothes at a good price. I bought my boys a lot of t-shirts this weekend - and flip-flops.
I've been back to work for about 5 weeks now. I love this job. It's so nice being back in the medical field. I love helping people, it's so rewarding. My boss is leaving the country on the 21st, so we have been trying to jam in nursing homes that we go to during that time, but we can't do too much more. We are working 6 days a week until he leaves. Crazy.
So, I realized that I haven't updated in awhile and thought I'd let those that read my journal know whats been going on. Time to run and get my oldest 2 off to their last final. YEAH!!! School is officially out for them.
Have a wonderful day!
~ Jennifer ~
